Willard was funny as hell. For a sane person, it's a scary, creepy movie, but for me it was a feel good comedy about people getting eaten alive by rats :-). I'm sorry, but some of it was so weirdly acted. There was this one part where his mom dies and he's at the funeral crying and its all sad. Then this giant snot wad comes out his nose :-D the theater was uproarius. There were some sad parts, but the rest was kinda cool. Like I said, i looove revenge horror. I wish I had an army of rats to sic on those who crossed me. Bahahaha die certain unnamable individuals beggining with B! (Molly knows who I mean ^_^).
Also! Had a good dinner compliments of dad. Spanish beans and rice, steak, and mozzerella sticks. MMmmmMMMmm.
I must be so annoying to watch a horror movie with. I have a really morbid sense of humor. I laughed at certain parts of the ring even. I am fond of yelling "DIE CHILDREN!". hmmph. That appears to be all for now.
A question for you to dwell on though-Is prostitution morally wrong? I'm not asking if its degrading or if its a bad thing to do, I'm just asking if there is anything actually WRONG with selling sex to people who are willing to do it for money? Safety measurement, I don't SUPPORT it, i just don't truly think it should be a "crime" if it's not hurting anybody. Now a disease getting passed along, that is wrong.
"Willard, there are rats in the basement!"-Opening line of willard. Immediately got me laughing at pathetic scriptwriting.

I wrote a freewrite. It started out about my mind being unusually silent and ended with air. Letting my mind write down itself and reading it is a strange thing. Heres the passage from my mind.

So what am I doing right now? Sitting. Freaking nothing. When you are between two things and don't have time to start something time can lag on. It's odd because then the sound in my brain gets turned off. Most people are always thinking about something. Every once in awhile my brain just putts out. And all I hear is silence. In some ways things are more clear when this happens, in others theyaren't. The air suddenly looks thicker. Have you ever just stared at air? Not the things around you or the sky, the air. Look somewhere about a foot in front of your face. Air is full of little moving dots and dust particles. Air is full of more substance than you think. In science, they tell you it is gas, but it is also a spiritual element. Or earth, air, water, and fire, air is the only one you can feel, but you can't see, which makes it all the more mysterious. Without air, a person dies instantly. How can something we can't even see have so much power? It's odd to think that I have the brain capacity to think about air. No one else seems to. Maybe they will once I mention it. Who knows. In with the winds of change.

Weirdness. That whole winds of change remark reminds me of a quote.
"When the winds of change blow, even the smallest of objects can become deadly projectiles."-Despair.com demotivational posters.

I had a sweet afternoon yesterday. Me and Molly went up to Jenkintown and shopped around like maniacs. First we went into this antique store and I found this ganster hat! It is so awesome looking. I asked the guy how much he wanted for it and he was just like "take it" :-O sweeeet. I look like carmen san diego dude. Anyways then we went to aphrodites dove (new age store). I got me some incense and Molly got a crystal. Then we went to the candy store and got these huge circle swirly lollipops the size of our faces! :-D we were skipping down the street with them like in some cartoon. Then we were in the comic book store. Then we went to Dunkin Dougnuts. My lollipop broke so we asked the people at the register for scotch tape and we did lollipop surgery :-D. O lord that was good stuff. Anyways then we chilled in Barnes&Noble till her brother picked us up. At that point i was on an insane sugar high from giant lollipops and doughnuts. We chilled at her house for awhile and watched some really hot anime. Gravitation X. That is some good Yaoi dude. Goood Yaoi.
Anyways, I had a morning as well. Chiropractor appointment, Starbucks w/ my dad, Hip Hop class (I wore the hat. Moncell called me Dick Tracy the entire time), then back to aphrodites dove w/ my dad to get a flute for mom's anniversary present. Now I'm here.
Tonight: Seeing Willard with Marla Alyssa and Emily. Revenge horror movie, booya. Nothing better than rats beating the crap outta people.
"Marijuana does not cause short term memory los-wait, what were we talking about?"-George Carlin

I'm supposed to be working on a project about Poseidon. But I already know a lot about him and have countless books of greek mythology at home. So instead I blog :-).
First of all-Strattera is an evil beast. For those who don't know, its an ADD drug. It came out two months ago. I am one of three people in my knowlege taking it. The other two are ryan and matt. Both of them just started taking it and they are both hugely sick. Now that I think about it, I was sick for the first couple of weeks too until I get used to it. But the kicker is that Matt is the only one who got warned about this to my knowlege. Dr Ziebleman claimed it had no side effects. Lying shmuck. Hopefully they'll get out of the loop. Other than that, the drug works pretty well at keeping my memory intact. I only don't pay attention in class when I choose not to ^_^ sometimes certain lessons are not worth my time.
Easiest french and bio classes ever today. In bio we were supposed to finish a project I already finished, so I kinda just sat there. In french we discussed almost everything but french, ranging from the war on Iraq to that girl who got kidnapped by the psyco mormon guy for 9 months.
Speaking of french, apparently my french teacher takes kickboxing at my tae kwon do studio and saw me yesterday >_< noo school and other parts of my life arent' supposed to collide like that. She saw me running upstairs with bo staffs for Master Kim. If she ever comes in that changing room while I'm there (shudder) not pretty. I don't want my french teacher to see that. I don't care if shes 27 its nasty.
Danielle won a big fat poetry contest for philadelphia area peoples :-D Yay! She got a 100$ gift certificate to Borders. Go Danielle. Woot woot.
I sent strongbad like 20 emails the other day. I signed them all with:
Hannah Sutin
Abington Pennsylvania
P.S. You have a nice butt.
"The pen is mightier than the sword and considerably easier to write with"-Marty Feldman

I swear to god there is nothing worse than being bored in the morning because you are far too tired to do anything. Except maybe go on the computer.
Mom's being paranoid. She found out that i was seeing doctor langman and will not rest until i decide to break contact with "the incompetent fool". She told me that she doesn't want me seeing him because he thinks she's a psycopath. Ok, one, he never said that. Shes freaking exaggerating. Two-She IS a psycopath sometimes! She doesn't seem to grasp why I'm seeing him though. She thinks I'm seeing him because i think shes going crazy again :-O does everything have to be about her!
O well. Anyway, my dad has been taking this computer farenzics (or however you spell it) class so he can find out where people have been on the internet. I forgot how he got it in, but it's him and a bunch of FBI agents and cops. Buahaha my dads a spy! Anyways, he needs it because he fixes computers at work (New Jersey department of enviromental protection or DEP). If he finds out people have been looking at porn, he has to fire them. He keeps bringing back funny stories from class about porn sites that leave track marks on people's computers. Like kangaroo porn X-D It's not even people humping kangaroos, it's kangaroos doing eachother and/or lying around in lingerie! Sick Australian bastards!
I don't really have a morning to speak of yet. I had waffles and got full really suddenly so i fed the remainder to my parrot. That thing is our honorary dog. I want a waffle iron if i get a good report card so I can have real waffles. By the way, I'm afraid of Mrs. Butterworths syrup. It seems too much like you are drinking her brain.
Master Kim from my tae kwon do studio suddenly learned my name and keeps making me get things from downstairs. Extra bo staffs and Targets and things. Dangit. I can't exactly say no. He'd kick my ass and I wouldn't even see it.
"I was wondering why I didn't see any tigers or dragons in the movie "Crouching Tiger, Hidden Dragon". Then I realized why. They were crouching and hidden."-Steve Martin

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Haha o lordy lordy what a day. I think i have some falling asleep in class issues. Im awake then I'm not.
Anyways, went to an honors society meeting today. We talked about loving instead of hating. I signed up for some kind of commitee with Marley. Another blank space will be full on my college app. Ben Jaye was there. Cool guy.
Heard a good joke. What's brown and sticky? A stick! Whats a group of rabbits walking backwards called? Receding hareline!
Hmm..listening to doug farber's bands cd. Not too shabby. I might go and see their concert. I was handing out flyers for walters thing on April 5th at the Ardsley community center. I stamp hands for those ^_^. Its a benefit concert so im gonna count it on my community service thing. Rock-a-thon counts I hope. Thats a lot of hours, and you are technically raising money. I need 26 more for a clean 50. Presidents service challenge. Bah. I just want a cute pin.
Someday i will eat a corndog and it will taste good. Don't ask me where that came from.
I want my backblog comments. Once again I will work on it until i have tae kwon do. Stupidness of computers.
I am good at nunchucks! Yesterday in tae kwon do they asked us to count how many figure eights we could do in a minute on left hand. I did 54! Most people got like 25.I am the lizard queen!
None of my family is home and I don't know where they are. I hate it when this happens. Then i don't know if i should make dinner for myself or not. Its also entirely too quiet when there isn't anyone here. I swear to god when walt leaves for college i will cry. I don't want all the attention focused on me. It will SUCK. I wuv him :-(.
I am riddled with anticipation. I ordered a The Cheat hoodie and it hasn't come yet >_< it better come soon.
"Girls don't fart, they fluff!"-Paul Kauffman, 9th grader.

Somethings been bugging the crap out of me lately. A lot of people have been using the words whore and slut real loosely to just describe a girl that flirts a lot or makes out with people occasionally. As a result, It gains the girl a bad rep. Its beginning to make me think. What really should make someone a slut? Where the hell is the line, anyway? And how come it seems like the girls are more judgemental about it than anything? These are the same people that also think it's unfair for guys to be players where girls are sluts. They say it's unfair, when the line is drawn by us xx's in the first place. What is so wrong with it in the first place anyway! Making out. Kissing. bla bla bla. Find me three things wrong with it. If it's not bothering anybody and you are both agreed to it, then what the hell is the freaking problem! Why! If a guy runs into a hall and yells "I'M HORNY!" everyone laughs. Same sentence applied to a girl, you get uncomftorble stares, mutters "slut", spattered laughs, and a few shady guys like :-D. Its so insane. For that matter what is wrong with sex! Criminy if it's done responsibly and everyone is in agreeance involved and you do the whole birth control shtick and you are prepared for emotional outcomes, then what is the big freaking deal? Nothing! Maybe your religion. That is all! Why is making out with a lot of people so negative. If anything it just means you are a person who enjoys love. If you aren't using it to exploit anybody or make other people jealous, then it shouldn't be a problem! Is there something that says a girl MUST desire a commited relationship? There are droves of guys that hear "commitment" and run screaming like little pussies. Why? why is it so negative for a girl to do the same thing. For gods sake, its just kissing! I understand if you're actually hurting someone you're supposed to be committed to or someone else is it's wrong, but why can't single people just mix around without girls getting the nasty rep! Its disgusting and I hate it. Also i need to say something about the whole "but women will be treated like objects if they do that" angle on it. You are only treated as an object if you let them. Ever see that scene in flashdance where the guy is making comments about the girl's ass, and she pours beer on his pants? That crammed his voicebox! If you are being treated nastily because of your behavior A)Leave them alone because you shouldn't concern yourself with idiots B)Freaking punch them in the face! Show them whose an object. Sex toys don't give you black eyes or call you a moron! Unless you have somekind of malfunctioning insult-comic inflatable doll/dildo, they just don't! Only the stereotyped can change the stereotype. So we need some strong "sluts". A feminist that openly enjoys making out. Every guys dream. Not a real slut, just the people who are getting judged against for the wrong reasons. The open flirts. Because there shouldn't be anything wrong with the frequent sidekiss. It's nice, lovely, and more often than not ,clean.
That's my piece for today. Open for a lot of hits but luckily for me this time I don't have a freaking comments server muahaha.
"The only thing that depresses me about the feminist movement is that somewhere along the line we lost "Hey, toots"."-George Carlin

Went to Danielles house today to practice our drama skits ^_^ we are doing the dead parrot sketch, and some boring dramatic one about two sisters making a pact of friendship. We had fun messing up our lines. I wish there was a video camera. Me-"THIS IS AN EX-PARROT!" Danielle-"....(forgets line)....*burp*.." Her grandma is awesome. Reminds me of my my past one *sigh* Nanny was cool. Only grandma I knew that did a shot of Jack Daniels every day. I seem to inherit the best traits in my family, huh?
I am working on my science project which was due yesterday. In any other class i would never turn in a project a day late without feeling insanely guilty, but mr zucker has the sensible policy and awesomeness to "accept the time and effort put into it, whenever you did it" ^_^ He is possibly the awesomest teacher I ever had. And definetely the only one who keeps a furby preserved in a jar of alcohol. Anyway, the project is the evolution of a species being the only one left on earth. I chose the panda. My species that I created where Dawhale, Landa, Panda-rat, Pantree, and the Pandasaurus (best of all!). This is what happens to my projects when I do them this late in the evening. I blame american idol for being such a good show. And my tae kwon do class running into it >_<. Speaking of American Idol, Trenyce did awesome AS usual. Cuz she is always awesome. Call 1-866-IDOLS-11 or die! Die painfully!
I am so freaking tired. I need to find out where this martin kid is hanging and if i should just telephone him out of the blue. Mrs. Carabelli is MIA. I keep missing her. I need to figure out if she talked to Dr. Langman yet. I need to talk to someone who understands my mom besides my dad. It's so horrible when you can't look to a parent for advice about something. If she even got the wind that I didn't want to talk to her, she would lose it on us again. Mom is constantly regressing to screaming and yelling and crying and using sarcasam against us. Always trying to get attention. I can't deal with it. She just isn't a good role model. I can't deal with the thought of being more stable than my own mother.
"Mama always knows where you've been/ She won't let you fly, but she might let you sing"-Pink Floyd

Walters band was playing again today. In kleba's words "wow, that sucked less".
Seriously, maybe the only competent parts are when Walter was playing sax and Abe Hmiel always cuz Abe rocks.
I played my bass for two hours today. It's a good instrument if you need comforting for some reason or another. A lot of heavy vibration and sound. Satisfying. Especially when you turn the amp up all the way and knock pictures off the wall. Then I ate macaroni and cheese and fell asleep in the process. Then I went for a walk to try and wake myself up. It didn't work so I went back to sleep.
I got to see Marley-tron briefly because I went to her house to get my backpack i left there on friday. Her sister is still awesome cuz she is. So is marley. And her parents. Good people them Marleys.
I was so tired today and I still am. Skipped tae kwon do. Going tommorow instead. Walter keeps calling me a drone. I still want to see dr langman. He calls me the cincinatti kid. I don't know why, but it's cute.
"Why don't you become part of the internet? Then you wouldn't have to work because you'd be the internet and you'd still make lots of money without working. If i wanted to talk to you, I'd just have to download certain programs."-Walter talking to me as I was typing this.

I slept 10 hours. That felt good. I get 5 hours on average because of my darkness paranoia. Honestly I love scary movies, but certain ones seriously make you pretty paranoid. As far as movies in general go, darkness falls sucked, but it definetely can make you paranoid. I'm not afraid of the dark, It can just be too intense sometimes. I like to know where something ends, get a sense of how long its going to be. It's a security thing. Pitch blackness is just odd and frightening at times. Especially in the quiet when all you can hear is your breath. Darkness is fine outside. Then theres moonlight, and trees. Both of these are comforting in a way for me. But i can't deal with just seeing black. That's why I'm so afraid of just moving into my life in general..having to "be" something later..the blackness..
Honestly the best horror movies are the ones where someone is getting revenge. I always wished I could do that without the guilt. Hurting without it ever being your fault. Carrie, the excorcist, the Ring even. Theres a little part in me that just wants to cheer for those people. Except maybe the excorcist, since its the devil, not the girl. Actually the excorcist kinda loses punch for me since I don't really believe in a set "devil". I believe in an evil spirit set to balance out the good one, but not a devil that immediately sets out to destroy all that good created. The sides exist, but they aren't at war.
There are three things you can believe in after death-Hell, Karma, and Nothing. If we all lived by the bible exactly, w'ed all go to hell because the bible honestly makes no sense when truly looked at. And if we can't know a true religion of the heaven and hell based ones, then we are doomed. So honestly it doesn't really make sense for "hell" to be there. Karma (my belief) says you pay for what you did now, or in the next life. So if something crappy happens that doesn't really involve another person (sickness, ect.) it's karma. Good example of karma-army recruiting office up the street collapsed. Normally someone would blame it on snow, but it's in a strip mall. If it was just the roof, the whole freaking strip mall would have collapsed. The war on Iraq gets slowed down considerably. That is also the reason i would never be able to commit suicide. I'd hurt too many people in the process. That karma screws your next life over big time. My mom has a lot of karma to be worked out from her past life. I know from reading certain lines on her palm. It sucks because it isn't her fault, but you have to live life with compassion for the next one. The last is what I would like to believe, that isn't true. Nothingness. Just a soft black to curl up in forever. Problemless. But I know it isn't true.
"Born again. and again, and again, and again..."-Bumper sticker

Cool Beans. My dinner tasted good. Dad yelled at me cuz i didn't cook it for my family ^_^ that's a compliment! At least it is in my hizouse. We all had a good time watching Memento cuz memento is a good time we all had watching. That sentence was almost symmetrical. Marley-tron brought Mandelbrot. I'm gonna start calling her Marley-tron cuz shes a robot. We ductaped. We ductaped and messed w/ nunchucks. We was being Ryan Sage Marley and Hannah like no one else because we were..i need gushers..imma gonna go munch some gushers..
"If you can't be crazy in a shrink's office, where can u be crazy?"-My mom after chucking a stuffed sheep at Dr. Langman.

Okay, does anyone know how much a Lithium battery costs? Freaking 9.00$!!!! I was so mad cuz i only had five. I was like "Yeah, i'll just get some batteries" So i only had five bucks. But nine dollars for one freaking battery! Dammit, im going back to buy one later but it still happens to suck. Dad's gonna be mad at me because i used the five dollars he gave me for the battery to buy tampons & kit kats ^_^ I'M NOT MOODY THIS TIME OF MONTH WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT!!
Also i dropped a piece of paper towel down the drain and tried to pull it out w/ tweezers..i knocked it down farther tho. If anyones over my house today and notices the bathroom sink is kinda clogged, thats why.
Dinner tonight! Making greek potatoes, chicken in mushroom gravy, green beans and there will be bread. And my pudding cups which kick supreme pudding ass!
"It's not un-delicious"-The Simpsons