*checks heart* eh, bit of a bruise, but nothing that wont fade in a few hours.
Silence, hormones.
Yeah, so I asked Joe out. Nope. But you know what? He's a really good friend anyway. And after I heard no outta him, the non-devastatedness of my reaction alerted me that Ryan was right. Yeap..not love. Just one horny child. But you know what? After I came home I felt a little more at peace knowing that he was just going to be my friend. We have a lot in common. Wouldn't want to ruin that with my sex drive.
Had the RFR meeting this morning w/ the Sage. Sage I apologize for bolting house on you, but hopefully the matrix dubs were worth the grueling walk. You got a milkshake of the ice cream variety however, which is pretty damn good! And you got to hear Walter talk about leeches on his penis! So hopefully that short period of time before I bolted house to "try out for survivor with joe" (His mom said tryouts were at plymouth meeting mall, they werent) was fun. We haven't chzilled in a while. You have to admit though, if Joe actually did try out survivor you wouldn't have missed it either, neh?
Buh. I feel bad for deserting Sage, but maybe that just makes up for him missing the first meeting (aneyeforaneyemakesthewholeworld-SHUT UP GHANDI!). Urk. w/e. Carry on.
In the van on the way back Joe said "you know whats funny? every single one of my friends has a crush on you already. Except Ed because he's gay.."
??
My world is shifting on me.
Sam, Kevin, Chris.
huh. Should I? Dare I? Would I?
Fiona..its been awhile
and its a sad, sad world/ when a girl will break a boy just because she can/..
If I did try..if I did..it would be sam beyond all doubt. Goth boy. Probably the most cheerful man I've met in awhile. Talking to him made me feel warm and fuzzy. He speaks Meow and liked my cheat hoodie. Sweetness in a can..beyond all doubt it would be Sam if I went for one..take the bait? Should I? Will I? So soon after I asked Joe out? Would he care? hmm..this would be so much easier if I went for Sam first, but I wanted Joe first and I know I'd spend a relationship with Sam wondering "what if.."
You know, the more I think about it..I feel like a relationship between Joe and I would be very married-couple therapy sessionish..but when I envision a relationship with Sam I'm immediately hit by Chihiro and the River Spirit in spirited away dancing on clouds..maybe he is what I need. Hurn. Not to mention maybe it wouldn't be the best idea to date a Bisexual. Oh Joe..your hair isn't all that flames ^_^.
Sam, Kevin, Chris.
When the hell did this happen?
...I think I'm going to take a chance. Its about damn time I had some fun. I think..I think..Je crois que..hmm
A new chapter. Clean slate. True he wont know what he's getting himself into but..
watch out sam, here comes Hannah Sutin ^_^
..poor bastard..doesn't know i'm plotting ehe..
but am I doing it just because its easy?
ah no, no..if it was just Kevin and Chris i wouldn't date either of them. I know that for a fact. Ones too quiet, the other..skanky? Whats the word..not right for me. Sam however
sam sam samuel..
I wonder I wonder..
Well, we'll see what develops.
In the end..maybe Hannah will find her love. But for now..its about time I started acting my age ^_^ I wont break any hearts, especially Sam's. But I think..i could start over a bit. I should give him a chance. If he really wants me..i want to give him the time of day, ya know?
Night chilluns. Maybe dawning tomorrow I'll be paired with a boy who wears a cape when its cold ^_^.
..you know I just realized he's a male version of Molly..O_O okay now I'm definetely going for it..
"FLIES!"-Mr Carr. *waves to 'Meda*

Some people go to Japanese nightclubs. And those are hot. Temma is a severe hottie.
To life! To life! L'chaim!
Kittens..murliffa sends me singing kittens..I've always been fond of rathergood but I never take enough time to watch the kittens..
Been a little too preoccupied with matrix dubbing.
Somebody stole my crayons and I think it was YOU Morpheus!!
the special ones go over the BRIDGE..
Summer is wonderful. I have..CONTROL! AHAHAHA swweeet sweet control over my own fucking life. I go to work. I make money. I get my money whenever I ask for it. I run my reading program, do work for my reading program, plan things, go on walks, excercise, train, eat right, experience the sun, walkwalkwalk everywhere, Abbies is having a sale..AHH! LOVELY! (No molly i did not just turn into a daimon egg)..
Best of all..moms on a Yoga weekend. Wooot. Nomomnomom partypartyPARTY!
You know shes very similar to Sage and Emily's moms in that she doesn't act like a neurotic psycho baby when you meet her, but when people leave us alone..hey satan, hows the children? SHUT UP OKAY I ADMIT IT I'M A HORRIBLE MOTHER! PASSIVE! AGRESSIVE! FIIIRE!
And its only children of these mothers who truly get it. Ne, Sage? Emily?
Although its probably 10 times rougher for those two cuz they're fire signs..i'm a water sign and my two family unit cohorts are earth. We just kind of stare at my mother while she has a fit until one of us breaks down and starts accomadating her. Its never Walter. Walter keeps stumbling down the stairs while I'm on the computer clutching a bottle of whiskey. "I DRINK 40-PROOF BECAUSE I'M GANGSTER!". I'm not worried about him. He always figures something out. I just wish he'd quit it with the malt liquor. If you're going to drink, drink something good. Not freaking 2$ fermaldhyde. I couldn't sleep the other night so I put a splash of sake in my warm milk. Works like a charm and its high quality wine. Not drunk, just sleepy. Not like it was last february where I was so freaking depressed and psycho I chugged a half a bottle of Amaretto and three sips of everything else and passed out. That..isn't healthy. But a lil' sake never hurt noone.

*in the parking lot at the eye doctor's*
Random dude: COUGH! COUGH! HAACCKKK!
Dad: No wonder he's at the eye doctors, with all that phlegm spraying into his vision..

Sage missed the RFR meeting this morning. However I'll forgive him because it created a gratuitous meeting in which Ms Dubois and I realized we needed to discuss crafts. However, Sage will recieve no tacos. Nate and I indulged in the latter after the meeting. Yumm. Ryan-kun called at some point and showed up at the other point. We watched some of the fun GI-Joe style Matrix Reloaded overdubbing I found online. If I was a pop-tart I'd be blueberry. Blueberry all the way yo. Morpheus! Don't eat food off the ground!..
Anyway..
Nate and Ryan came to work w/ me for a little bit. Master Kim introduced himself by making fun of Nates hair because Master Kim is awesome and can get away with anything. Not that making fun of Nate's hair is awesome. In most cases it would suck. I love Nate's hair. But Master Kim making fun of anything is hilarious because its Master Kim. I suppose you'd have to meet him to understand.
Reminds me!
You know how I work 4-7:30 with possible gratuitous classes stretching until 9 at the latest?
I don't get dinner. If anybody feels some form of summer boredom, feel free to bring me food. Gluten (wheat)-free preferably, but with the amount of excercise I'm being put through, anything "sane" will do (no bacon wrapped cheese lard rolls). Other than that, I've been eating large lunch and breakfast. So long, third meal. I'll miss you.
Okay..my rant for the day. If you have a significant other (read I am not specifically targeting anybody here *read read Melage, do not take this personally*)remember this rule of thumb..BROS BEFORE HOS! For the love of god! I love people in couples. Its cute and fills my heart with love. I don't mind PDA even. Honestly. But when people cancel plans to be with their friends just so they can make out with their girlfriend or boyfriend it pisses me off to no end! It pisses me off and it rarely even happens to me! Most of my friends are fine on this note. Tim and Jen have never given me this problem. And they've been dating for two fucking years. But its not fair dammnit! Some people just throw their friends to the window when they fall in love. Its easy, no doubt. But when you become THAT attatched to somebody, the rest of your life falls to shit. Its happened to me once or twice. If and when your relationship falls apart (and it always does if you cling together like a couple of fucking lintballs) you will be left with one centered thing to cry about and nobody extremely sincere to cry to because you instantly threw them away for someone that wasn't loyal enough to keep you. Friends are loyal. Girlfriends and Boyfriends are also loyal friends, hence the word "friend" on the end of them. Do you constantly call and check up on your regular friends to make sure they still like you? Do you try to squeeze in every hour of every day with them just so you can be sure that they are with you and your friend? Do you fucking measure out every little expression that flies across your regular friends faces? Hell no. It's fucking scary. And if you did it to one of your regular friends, they'd end up being your submissive friend out of fear or pity, or they'd be off and running. Its about trust. You trust your regular friends. So trust your damn boyfriend or girlfriend that if you don't include them in every aspect of your life, they will not dump you. My parents are in love. They're married. Do they monitor eachothers every movement? No. Sucess is not clinging and proving to the world you're sucessful. Lust and love make an attatchment, casual friendship creates a sane relationship.
*gets off soapbox*
At this point I'll address my own hypocrisy. I've never been a "good" relationship, I just watch other peoples.
End.



Kid outside of Chick FilA: CHICK FILA KILLS CHICKENS!
Hannah: I KILLED YOUR FATHER!

Click boogiemonster in my previous post if you have yet to do it.

Why I like my job:
-Air Conditioning
-Easy work (filing, answering the telephone, cleaning bathrooms, xeroxing)
-Payday whenever I decide to ask for it
-Payment comes in wads of cash from the school's safe.
-Ample time to sit in a chair and stare into space/draw/read/organize the rest of my life.
-Unlimited snapple/gatorade.
-Chris occasionally buys me food.
-I get to display my artwork

ect, ect..my summer is gonna be quite the leisurely one, methinks.
Testing for my red belt in July. Egad.
Bought some spiderman band-aids for the blisters on my feet. Ryan says I get a kick out of acquiring posessions. I do. It doesn't create happiness. Happiness comes from excercising and dancing around to loud swing music and screaming jump jivenwail when nobodys home and hugging joe when he needs it..
O well. Least they're practical. Unlike the lightsaber. *shrug* FWSHH! BUAHAHAHAHA!
At least I'm not drunk.
O yeah, emily has to watch evil dead II. And so does marla. Because its a funny horror movie. GIVE ME BACK MY HAND YOU BASTARD!!
CARIBOUUU!

Little girl: Tyler, can I have four quarters for two dollars
Tyler: No! Because four quarters adds up to $1.50..wait a minute..*pause* *counts on fingers*
Hannah: AHAHAHAHAHA muscles!

Why did I have a crush on him? O right, he's hot..dammnit *Fnfnjgklnjk* Its always the middle row you type when frustrated.

BOOGIEMONSTER!
Yeah, click "watch this movie" *Sniggle*
You can't get past my arms!
So, lady from the Times Chronicle just called and interviewed me about Reading for Rascals. Anybody attending the meeting on the 22nd has to be prepped for a photoshoot. Sorry NatenSage..you snooze/go on vacation you lose.
I bought a lightsaber! FWSHHH!
All.

Hedy: I like Ladyfingers.
Mom: Of course you do.

Hedy's a lesbian.

Nate and Ryan, you are both very right. Emily..man you just kick ass. And did you not notice how when the stepford lady modeled the perfect robot-man for herself, it was CHRISTOPHER WALKEN?? because he is the perfect man, perhaps? Along with your Adam West and of course David Carradine.
I relax my brain by lighting every candle in my room, turning out the lights, and looping Wish You Were Here (pink floyd). Its very chill and emotional. I like..I like..
My little cousin Anna (age 8) have a band called the Flying Fish. We wrote a song called "Nate eats tape". Yes Nate, we are referring to you.

(Bum bum)
Nate.
(DAa DAA!)
Eats tape!
(Bum Bum)
Nate.
(Daa DAA)
Eats tape!
Naate..Naaate..NAAATE Eats Tape!
Hannah:What kind of tape does he eat Anna?
Anna: DUCTAPE!
Nate eats ductape.
Nate eats ductape.
NATE EATS EVERY KIND OF TAPE!

It goes on with different kinds of tape. And at some point I do a bass slide and yell "NATE EATS TAPE ALL THE WAY TO DA MOOOOOOON! Very interesting night all together.
Marley's cool.
Yup..
I can sculpt again. Time is yum.
Saw Ben Jaye the other day. He appears well.
I work now 4-7:30. Visit me.

Hannah: *shows Anna a picture of Nate* This is Nate.
Anna: Ohh..so he's the one that eats tape!