Narg, post blog post do iiiiit..
but whatever. i've typed into blank space before, I'll do it again.
School/Parents are sucking the soul outta me.
Jonichi-kun's got a womyn by the name of Danielle. She's Italian, but that's really all I know.
I love my sewing machine. And public enemy.
But alas..even matierial posessions are having trouble with me lately..I feel so goddamn sluggish..
I wanna train. Do tae kwon do out the wazoo. I want to sew costumes, scream, sing, LIVE, walk places on the weekends..
but motherfuckin' goddamn school and parents and their screechy lies.
"we're not trying to punish you"
That's not what it FUCKING feels like.
I need to make a list.
Fill out grant forms.
Fill out prudential spirit of community award.
Study for Hard Times test
Study for math test
Study for SAT's
Train Tae Kwon Do
Sew Costumes
Practice for talent show
Draw promo flyers for Tae Kwon Do
Work on Relentless sketches
Physics project
Chores
Shower
Eat
Sleep

If only it were possible to just do the last three. But instead they seem to be taking priority after everything else.
You know what really sucks? I like somebody and he likes me back. I want to ask him out, but I FUCKING CAN'T. Why? I'll tell you. No goddamn time. Even if I did have him, when would I see him? Never. Relationship would fucking terminate. Beautiful. Fucking. Beautiful.
I'm depressed right now. Not because I'm under the impression I'm alone. Of course people are there for me. But..they aren't allowed to be there for me right now. So it's not like i think I have no one to turn to, nowhere to go, blah blah no hope left blah...I know you're there. Thank you. Now please destroy my parents/the barrier
God, I don't even have the energy to plan a birthday party nomores. I want to have one at the TKD studio..but fuck that'd be 3 weeks after my Bday if it happened..and I don't even know if it'd happen..Nate, if you plan a joint Bday party, that'd be great, but at this point my energy is frickin' rock bottom. I'd be allowed to go to a birthday party if it was just yours, I already asked my parents.
But damn.
I miss Emily, Marla and Alyssa. I see Emily. But the other two? Fuck, they're some of my closest friends and I can't fucking see them. Why? I'M NOT ALLOWED OUT. I think about 'em all the time. I miss you guys. Really, I do.
I don't even know if I want a birthday party..it seems too much stress. And the only pro against it is "But you wont get as many presents" and then I think about that and I feel disgusted with myself. O god no. I'm missing out on more matierial posessions.
I miss everybody so much.
...if this isn't PMS i'm going to shoot myself...I hate it when I actively try to inspire pity in people just because I'm a wittle lonely...RGH..
Walter told me he wanted to eat my soul today. I'm glad he's home.

"I could punch through that concrete wall, but at my age I need to calm down."-Master Kim

But root vegetables have meowed since the middle ages.

Somethin's cookin, Iiii'm at the griddle..
Watched buffy musical this morning before I left for school as a sorta fight song for PSAT's. I think it worked. Maybe it didn't, but all the questions I knew I had wrong I omitted, so I hopefully didn't lose too many points.
Urnghh...decisions decisions.
See..the 23rd is a difficult day. I've got three things that never happen all happening at once, and I gotta pick..gotta choose..which one..which one
Uno: Chris taking his 3rd dan black belt test :-O!!!!!!! THAT IS GOING TO BE SO COOL!...
but then
Dos: Rocky Horror. :-( I mis TIT so much and I gotta do halloween rocky horror, I just gotta.
....BUT THEN...
Tres: Seamus in Pigmalion (sp???!?). Okay..that..that..awesome..must..go
And I want to meet this g/f of his. Alyssa.
So I'm faced with three ridiculous choices. If I'm grounded, I go to chris's test. Because that is all i'd be allowed to do. if i'm real low on cash and not grounded, it's rocky.
But if i have money and i'm not grounded..
I'm sorry TIT...
Pigmalion. i gotta see this..really, I do. But then again, you may be in luck and my parents might be "washington? ARE YOU HIGH?"
Then it would be extra money in mah pocket and Rocky for the night.
but to cheer you up, here's this!
THE BULL I SHALL SLAY!
My back and pinkie are bruisy and achy.
i have work today! Hooray for art!

"I hope hitler is in hell and he's one of those kids that always tries to say funny stuff but it never works and he's the only one laughing and everbody just looks at him distastefully. THAT IS PURE HELL"-..one of the weirder rants I've gone on recently.

Despite my complaints and not being able to attend rocky horror things and social events, I often enjoy being grounded. I become much more manic and spazzy.

*phone rings*
*Hannah answers*
Hannah: Helloooo?
Mom: Hey, its me. Is dad there?
Hannah: ja, hold up *yells* DAD IT'S THE BALL AND CHAIN! SHE SOUNDS MAD!
Mom: I'm not mad!!
Hannah: REALLLY MAD!
*runs away laughing*

I've also been listening to rage against the machine and other angry thrashy bands that walter left me. And sewing a lot. Yelling in japanese. Screaming random shit at my parents.

Mom: How many spoons of sugar do you wan-
Hannah: I WILL SAVOUR YOUR DEATH!
Mom: What?
Hannah: three.

Dad: Hannah, do you know how radar works?
Hannah: Of course I do!
(pause)
(waves hand in a circle)
Weooow...weeowww..weeoow..

My dad and I went to party fair the other day. Sagenz was working. We bought my gogo wig, a ball and chain I'm converting into a mace, and shrunken heads which we now have hanging on the door.
I think Jonichi-kun is coming over to practice today, but i'm unsurez considering he doesn't have a fucking phone to confirm such activities with.

"I may be love's bitch, but at least I'm man enough to admit it."-Spike